Your world is tired of your explanation. Explanation is exhibited in the realm of excuses and ends a man in mediocrity. Nothing speaks for you like your fruits.
That is what the world and even God uses to rate and value your worth. Matthew 7.20 Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.? Your fruit is your work which in turn is the measure of your worth.
You have to work it out. Galatians 5.22, 23
By exhibiting love, offering joy, and peace; showing long suffering and gentleness, demonstrating goodness and faith, showing meekness and temperance.
A fruit attracts and compels attention.
Let your life so speak before all who behold you.